Beatles make me sound wise !!!

And there will be an answer..... "LET IT BE" !!!
These are more than just mere lyrics to one of my favorite songs, "Let it be" by The Beatles, it's a fact too hard to adopt or imply, but it's one which eventually turns out to be the right thing to do at most of the situations.


Letting go is probably one the hardest possible things to do. Whether it's a thought,a dream, a relationship, holding on to anything once it's run it's course of time can ONLY be painful. Yet being how we are, we find clinging on to something familiar tighter than before , simpler than letting go and finding something new, something out of our usual comfort zone. And the harder you clutch on to something , the more pain you build up in the process. 
Letting go is inevitable.It HAS to occur at some point in every situation, profession, relation and pretty much in life as a whole ! No matter how sweet the memories, nothing including life lasts forever ! 


Probably the hardest thing to let go are relationships or any emotional bond for that. We hold on to them so tightly for so long that in the end all you feel instead of love you feel hurt that comes from holding on too tight. Why can't we just bring ourselves to the point where we admit to ourselves ,let alone others, that all good things DO end, just like the bad ones?? Why do we forget that despite the end being near,sometimes we can still continue to take away cherished memories ONLY if we let go ? Why do we find battled endings better than peaceful partings?? Sometimes two people fight for so long to preserve something ,the end of which they deep down know has been overdue, that their fight becomes a lost cause ! Sometimes you fight to not let "things" fall apart despite knowing that keeping them together is just not a long-term solution . Sometimes,somethings have to fall apart ,for new things ,better things to happen and if you let go when you should, NOTHING can take away the value of what you had from you ! In fact, you develop a deeper appreciation of what belonged to you after that!


Endings are of two types: One where you KNOW things end, and One where they ACTUALLY do. The gap between the two ,is the time you take to let go and once you do, you come out a different person. Every idea , every dream, every relationship, that you choose to let go, or that chooses to let go of you, changes you. The people you choose to let go of, leave making you someone new , adding something new to you or taking away something unnecessary in you with them.This change is important , because it's this change that takes you further along life. You soon realize no matter what you give up or what is taken away from you, you will always have something new coming your way. If not now then later, but NOTHING stops life, it doesn't stop even at points where you think it will!


Sometimes you end up taking paths which later turn out to be the best routes for you. The best things in life come when you least expect them, when you take a path not knowing where you're headed, you eventually end up with what you were looking for subconciously. It don't know how it happens,but it just does.....
No matter how much you plan , the best things happen when you let go......And this has happened more than once to me :) Letting go as hard as it is, when it happens, it eventually brings you the best, something you never believed could happen to you does ! And when it does, you realize there is NOTHING in life you can cling on to forever without it slipping away ! So let nature decide the time of everything and just live for the moment, so you won't have to hang on to anything longer than you should when the time comes to let go :)

The sunset is probably nature's way of telling us to not be so afraid to let go .Without the sunset, the possibility of a sunrise would never occur :)

THESE Thoughts on THAT day.........

I don't like how my mind works..,I hate the feeling when things are fine and then randomnly i get a flash like WTF am I doing here !! I hate not remembering how or what got me to the point where I've reached..I hate my impulse ....I feel too much of what I do is because of my impulsive decission making capablities...Sometimes, I do things just beause I CAN and not because I want to...I hate that kind of power, the one where I do things for the heck of it and now that it's getting routine I am bored :/ Because more so than anyone else, I have run out of explaining rather coming up with reasons for why I do the things I do, for myself...I hate regretting later, but then again, I don't regret things while doing them....This sounds complicated to me as each word that was in my head is actually coming on to the screen ! 
I haven't slept like a sound sleep since quite a few days,that's my first sign to realize something is wrong though my brain refuses to acknowledge it.And now that it's happening evry other day I see myself falling back to the same patterns..the infamous endless night serious which I am officially fed up of....I hate coming to this point, the point where I realize I was happy untill 2 days back and fuck knows what happened to turn that around ! Because I swear remembering feeling happy, I can fool my thinking but I can't fake feelings.And then when all of a sudden when you realize you arent happy anymore you wonder what happened and if all that was just plain fake ,a fake pretence to overshadow something you must be feeling deep deep down. So I'm writing hoping to find what's down,deep deep down that I *might* be wanting to overshadow by being happy, though I swear I felt happiness and that it wasn't fake, because it ws for a long time, just untill a few days back...
I am not the person to hold back,If m sad I don hide it, not from myself, if m happy then I don't hide it from others, but i wonder why I chose to not admit being not happy from myself too....maybe I am wrong,maybe I was happy, maybe I suddenly have just realized how much or to what extent things have changed for me in a short span of time and I might not be as accustomed to the change as I anticipated.I don't like this point. The one where I realize it's too late to talk to someone or turn to someone to make me fine again. And it's funny how I ALWAYS realize I'm in some unnamed shit, AFTER reaching this same very point every single time !And yet I try, try talking to someone but then there's something within me which stops me from wanting to reach out to someone ....I dont like that...Out of all the things I wish for, I wish I was better at conversations.. Sometimes I feel half of the things that I want are soo easy, so simple, only if I cud bring myself to ask someone for them, specially the people who say they would do anything for me! Conversations are essential to thrive and I feel half the things in my life that have been sustained is because I have fought for them enough by opening up to someone enough...it's something I just CANT bring myself to do...Everytime I feel like someone knows quite enough about me, it makes me feel happy, proud rather for opening up, only to realize, very suddenly too, that there is a big gap still, between what I feel and what they know of. It's not fair sometimes,not to me, but to people ,who wonder what's wrong...Wish I knew enough or could atleast tell them half of what I feel in bits and pieces for them to join them together and solve the puzzle that is- MY MIND!
I shouldve realized something was wrong with me a while back and not fooled myself for so long...Because now I HATE that I've brought myself to the same place like always without realizing what's wrong ...maybe nothing is, but for now I feel unhappy and weirdly so. Too much change , maybe but then why didn't I react when everything was IN the process of changing and why now ??? wish I knew or could bring myself to answer atleast HALF of the questions I've written in here.....I feel a bit better writing, but I know this isn't going to last for long and again the stupid annoying fucking mood is goin to get the best of me ! And when that happens, I'l write again, I swear because I need SOME fucking outlet...!!






PS- Movie Dialogue Stuck In my head


" I was doing just fine until you showed up...."


Scarlet Johanson to Jonathan Rhys Meyers (Match Point)


Note To Self- Half of the things you don't believe in, shouldn't be accepted by you even though they might come in prettier packages ahead in life.